I have a special kind of lust deep inside my heart,Something I really shouldn't start.My thoughts fill with my cold body lying in my own blood,These dangerous thoughts come to me now in a flood.I pray that soon I will stop crying,And I beg for this life to finally start dying.I used to feel it was possible that someone out there cared,But the truth hit me and my feelings were not spared.With death I have flirted before,The memories of our time together I still adore.Don't pretend you know what I am going through,This deadly mental defect does not need your rescue.
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Post in Poems — dated 6 January 2013, added to the site 29 July 2013, last edited 10 December 2013
Page — dated 8 June 2013
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I have a special kind of lust deep inside my heart,Something I really shouldn't start.My thoughts fill with my cold body lying in my own blood,These dangerous thoughts come to me now in a flood.I pray that soon I will stop crying,And I beg for this life to finally start dying.I used to feel it was possible that someone out there cared,But the truth hit me and my feelings were not spared.With death I have flirted before,The memories of our time together I still adore.Don't pretend you know what I am going through,This deadly mental defect does not need your rescue.
Earlier saved version, 8 June 2013 16:40 — the wording differs
I have a special kind of lust deep inside my heart,Something I really shouldn't start.My thoughts fill with my cold body lying in my own blood,These dangerous thoughts come to me now in a flood.I pray that soon I will stop crying,And I beg for this life to finally start dying.I used to feel it was possible that someone out there cared,But the truth hit me and my feelings were not spared.With death I have flirted before,The memories of our time together I still ado
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