If you only knew how it is for me,I just wish it could be so easy.To just stop breathing and fade away,I really do not want to stay.I hate that my lungs require the air,Only to keep me from going anywhere.I can't seem to stop this never ending fight,I don't want to live another night.I can't stand this painful thought,The one where only death is sought.I can only sit here and loath this life that I was given,I already know I have been forsaken.I absolutely hate my defective mind,Its a dangerous package of mental problems that have been combined.I am not worth your effort of trying to care,My life is too meaningless to share.
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Post in Poems — dated 26 January 2013, added to the site 29 July 2013, last edited 10 December 2013
Page — dated 8 June 2013, last edited 10 June 2013
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If you only knew how it is for me,I just wish it could be so easy.To just stop breathing and fade away,I really do not want to stay.I hate that my lungs require the air,Only to keep me from going anywhere.I can't seem to stop this never ending fight,I don't want to live another night.I can't stand this painful thought,The one where only death is sought.I can only sit here and loath this life that I was given,I already know I have been forsaken.I absolutely hate my defective mind,Its a dangerous package of mental problems that have been combined.I am not worth your effort of trying to care,My life is too meaningless to share.
Earlier saved version, 8 June 2013 18:39 — the wording differs
If you only knew how it is for me,I just wish it could be so easy.To just stop breathing and fade away,I really do not want to stay.I hate that my lungs require the air,Only to keep me from going anywhere.I can't seem to stop this never ending fight,I don't want to live another night.I can't stand this painful thought,The one where only death is sought.I can only sit here and loath this life that I was given,I already know I have been forsaken.I absolutely hate my defective mind,its a dangerous package of mental problems that have been combined.I am not wor
Earlier saved version, 8 June 2013 18:40 — the wording differs
If you only knew how it is for me,I just wish it could be so easy.To just stop breathing and fade away,I really do not want to stay.I hate that my lungs require the air,Only to keep me from going anywhere.I can't seem to stop this never ending fight,I don't want to live another night.I can't stand this painful thought,The one where only death is sought.I can only sit here and loath this life that I was given,I already know I have been forsaken.I absolutely hate my defective mind,its a dangerous package of mental problems that have been combined.I am not worth your effort of trying to care,My life is too meaningless to share.
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