Poems
I Just Want To Know Why
My thoughts are always racing in the most complex insanity,
I cannot bear to continue seeing all those I love with everything in me just don't feel the same way about me.
I would give anything in me to ease this kind of pain I feel if my loved one was the one who was feeling it,
I could never find happiness if I knew that they were having to breath in each breath begging for it to just cease,
Knowing that non of my loves are suffering in such a way is the only little bit of comfort I have for my heart to feel at least a small amount of ease.
Sadly it only last for a second in thought before the storm of pain and misery rears up again,
The violence inflicted would take down all men.
Now I must say with all sincerity,
That this life I am expecting to continue is one that every miligram of me loathes the thought of keeping.
When I look at those living their lives around me with little care,
I die a bit more inside knowing that avoiding my pain whenever possible is something they all seem to share.
I just want to know why,
If I'm not worth risking it all for then why must you keep on insisting on this space for me to occupy.
Because even though you may never truly take the time to imagine what it must be like to be my soul,
The truth is that I just don't matter enough to anyone so there is no one here to want to make me whole.