I wish you would see me sitting here,Wishing you would come near.But instead I just sit here in the side,So ashamed I want to hide.I have nothing to share,Not like anyone would even care.I should just leave to some other place,And give everyone their space.Its obvious I am not wanted here,Something that has always been a fear.For a moment I actually thought I could speak,The attention from you is what I now seek.But when I tried to call your name,My voice was silent and my shyness was to blame.My mind uncontrollably screamed with objection,I finally accepted that I would never feel your affection.
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Post in Poems — dated 2 January 2013, added to the site 29 July 2013, last edited 10 December 2013
Page — dated 8 June 2013, last edited 10 June 2013
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Page copy, dated 8 June 2013 — the wording differs from the version above
I wish you would see me sitting here,Wishing you would come near.But instead I want to hide.I have nothing to share,Not like anyone would even care.I should just leave to some other place,And give everyone their space.Its obvious I am not wanted here,Something that has always been a fear.For a moment I actually thought I could speak,The attention from you is what I now seek.But when I tried to call your name,My voice was silent and my shyness was to blame.My mind uncontrollably screamed with objection,I finally accepted that I would never feel your affection.
Earlier saved version, 8 June 2013 16:25 — the wording differs
I wish you would see me sitting here,Wishing you would come near.But instead I want to hide.I have nothing to share,Not like anyone would even care.I should just leave to some other place,And give everyone their space.Its obvious I am not wanted here,Something that has always been a fear.For a moment I actually thought I could speak,The attention from you is what I now seek.But when I tried to call your name,My voice was silent and my shyness was to blame.My mind uncontrollably screamed with objection,I finally accepted that I would never feel his affection
Earlier saved version, 8 June 2013 16:26 — the wording differs
I wish you would see me sitting here,Wishing you would come near.But instead I want to hide.I have nothing to share,Not like anyone would even care.I should just leave to some other place,And give everyone their space.Its obvious I am not wanted here,Something that has always been a fear.For a moment I actually thought I could speak,The attention from you is what I now seek.But when I tried to call your name,My voice was silent and my shyness was to blame.My mind uncontrollably screamed with objection,I finally accepted that I would never feel your affection
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