It seems I just can't do anything right,Don't know if I should even try to fight.I have lost your love and respect,But this was something I knew to expect.My episodes unexpectedly turned on you,That was something I never expected it would do.Now because of my defective brain,The pain it caused will forever remain.I deserve all your anger and hate,And fully accept this as my fate.I always seem to destroy everything with my defect,From me you didn't know that you had to protect.I can't risk this happening again to you,And I know there is only one thing that I must do.By breaking my own heart and walking away,Then hopefully the hurt I caused you will fade one day.
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Post in Poems — dated 4 February 2013, added to the site 29 July 2013, last edited 10 December 2013
Page — dated 8 June 2013
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Page copy, dated 8 June 2013 — same words, with a blank line between every line
It seems I just can't do anything right,Don't know if I should even try to fight.I have lost your love and respect,But this was something I knew to expect.My episodes unexpectedly turned on you,That was something I never expected it would do.Now because of my defective brain,The pain it caused will forever remain.I deserve all your anger and hate,And fully accept this as my fate.I always seem to destroy everything with my defect,From me you didn't know that you had to protect.I can't risk this happening again to you,And I know there is only one thing that I must do.By breaking my own heart and walking away,Then hopefully the hurt I caused you will fade one day.
Earlier saved version, 8 June 2013 19:13 — the wording differs
It seems I just can't do anything right,Don't know if I should even try to fight.I have lost your love and respect,But this was something I knew to expect.My episodes unexpectedly turned on you,That was something I never expected it would do.Now because of my defective brain,The pain it caused will forever remain.I deserve all your anger and hate,And fully accept this as my fate.I always seem to destroy everything with my defect,From me you didn't know that you had to protect.I can't risk this happening again to you,And I know there is only one thing that I must do.By breaking my own heart and w
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