My mind keeps telling me what I need to do,I can feel the darkness easily breaking through.I simply don't care anymore,For my life there is no encore.Dark and twisted my mind goes deep,To where self loathing is hidden no longer asleep.I pull it into my arms and bring it back to the surface,My own self mutilation and inevitable destruction is now obvious.I don't care what happens when it rises,I am looking forward to its violent surprises.To think I was an idiot walking around blind,Somehow believing I could actually last a whole lifetime.
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Post in Poems — dated 14 February 2013, added to the site 29 July 2013, last edited 10 December 2013
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My mind keeps telling me what I need to do,I can feel the darkness easily breaking through.I simply don't care anymore,For my life there is no encore.Dark and twisted my mind goes deep,To where self loathing is hidden no longer asleep.I pull it into my arms and bring it back to the surface,My own self mutilation and inevitable destruction is now obvious.I don't care what happens when it rises,I am looking forward to its violent surprises.To think I was an idiot walking around blind,Somehow believing I could actually last a whole lifetime.
Earlier saved version, 10 June 2013 01:13 — the wording differs
My mind keeps telling me what I need to do,I can feel the darkness easily breaking through.I simply don't care anymore,For my life there is no encore.Dark and twisted my mind goes deep,To where self loathing is hidden no longer asleep.I pull it into my arms and bring it back to the surface,My own self mutilation and inevitable destruction is now obvious.I don't care what happens when it rises,I am looking forward to its violent surprises.To think I was an idiot walking around blind,Somehow believing I could actually last a whol
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