Poems
LOST SOUL
Sometimes I lay alone and hold my breath,
Wondering if it was similar to death.
I have always had an issue about my defects,
Knowing I was now one of the many rejects.
I would never be normal again,
That ended when I was only ten.
For the longest time I wanted to end this fight,
My whole life I wished I could rewrite.
But there was no going back from here,
My life’s direction was still unclear.
I knew deep down inside,
That all my happiness would be denied.
It took me years of fighting myself until I finally found,
The place where all my tears never made a sound.
I searched so hard and didn’t find what I was hoping for,
That was something I simply could not ignore.
I found myself completely empty inside,
That is when I realized that my soul had finally died.
I was from now on an empty shell,
Now forever living in my own private hell.
There was no life waiting for me anymore,
And nothing left for me to restore.